With so much going on lately, progress on my In-depth project has hit a slight bump, but I am currently reflecting on and reevaluating everything. Hopefully, with all the time I will be spending at home in the near future, I can spend some of that extra time catching up on this project.
I believe that the most difficult experience I have been having with my mentor is communication. Although I have briefly discussed this before, meeting and communicating with my mentor continues to be an issue. Scheduling meetings with my mentor has always been tricky; especially now with everything going on in the world, face to face meetings are out of the question. Since my mentor and I both have conflicting schedules, we haven’t been able to meet as much as I would have liked. We have been in touch with each other over email, although this is not ideal, and my mentor is sometimes unable to respond right away. Over the past couple of weeks, we have been slightly off. Communication is not as efficient between us as it used to be between my mentor and me.
However, despite my troubles in communication, I am lucky to be working on a project that does not require specific materials or special resources from a mentor. This may be why the rest of my work on some specific monologues is going well. I continue to work on further developing some of the monologues I have chosen to explore. Emma helped me choose one of my dramatic monologues, and I have been working with it a bit, alongside some other pieces I’ve chosen. The monologue is taken from the book, Mockingjay, which I just recently finished reading (by Emma’s recommendation). I’ll list the monologue below:
“But one day I’ll have to explain about my nightmares. Why they came. Why they won’t ever really go away. I’ll tell them how I survive it. I’ll tell them that on bad mornings, it feels impossible to take pleasure in anything because I’m afraid it could be taken away. That’s when I make a list in my head of every act of goodness I’ve seen someone do. It’s like a game. Repetitive. Even a little tedious after more than twenty years. But there are much worse games to play.”
With this in mind, I have begun to write out some ideas about some angles I might want to approach the piece with. One piece of advice that my mentor gave me at the beginning of this project is that I should choose a monologue that applies to my age range. Although this monologue is from the point of view of a woman much older than I am, I believe that the content can still apply to someone my age as well. For this reason, I believe that this piece is working well for me.
My next step will be to have this monologue fully memorized, which will most likely not take very long. After that, I can begin molding it into something of my own.
Something that I believe could be working better for my project is following my timeline. Since this last month or so has been absolutely crazy, what with everything going on, I have not been sticking to my timeline that I originally planned out. The meetings with my mentor did not take place when they should have, and that has really thrown me off on some of my personal due dates. I will need to sit down and reevaluate everything I’ve done and what I still need to accomplish. I can then lay out a new timeline for myself for what is left of this In-depth project. Hopefully, my mentor will be able to get back in touch with me, and she will be able to give me some advice over email. At this point, I really just need to be thinking about adjusting and being flexible to the situation that has been presented and try to think of creative ways to work around any road blocks.